I get really bad panic attacks...

I can't relate to you at all. But if you need a friend or someone to talk to I'm here for you bro. Thank you for the comment on my post.

i have massive anxiety and panic attacks.. i start crying and wanting to scream.. finding myself wanting to die- the more you focus on them the worse seem to be.. my advice would be once you feel them come on find anything you love or amazing memory you hold onto and close your eyes breath slow and think this is going to pass.. and picture that place that means the most to you.. it helps me a little so i hope maybe in some way it helps you-

I feel your pain!! I have had panic attacks since before gradeschool. I am in my late 40's now and find that my fear of having an attack has increased with age. When I panic, the symptoms I immediately recognize are a pounding heart, a choking sensation, sweating, and numbness in my arms and legs. Unfortunately, My body also responds by emptying my bowels which has become THE most concerning part of panic for me. Although I have no medical degree, I would question the large amount of Wellbutrin you are using! Wellbutrin is known to cause very vivid dreams and at that dosage, I would guess some of the suicidal ideation could be a side effect. I tried that medication for a very short time and chose to move on after seeing lime-green frogs attacking me!! Effexor XR has worked the best of all the antidepressants I've been on (A LOT!), but I am on a high dosage (300mg a day) and I also use Xanax for immediate relief when needed. It seems to me that Panic Disorder is a chronic condition--there are times when it seems to have disappeared and then suddenly appears again with incredible power!! During this type of relapse, I have had to use the Xanax up to 3 times a day. Then when I feel in control again, I am able to decrease and I currently use one at night to help me sleep. When I truly feel ready, I will begin to decrease the Effexor--THAT is a very scary thought but I really want to reach that point. So I would suggest you discuss your medications with your MD. DO NOT stop taking them all at once 'cause it will make matters worse! If you have not already done so, you might want to try cognitive/behavioral counseling as well. I return to my therapist whenever the Panic takes over because I recognize that there is something I am forgetting to do that will help me cope. Three visits is all it takes! Lots of us are out here living with it, you can do it too!!